absent

this is not how i planned january to be.

i wanted lots of time to blog.

and get things done.

my body & this baby had other plans.

i started to feel the worst on sunday.

my body aches.

i seriously have to walk like the hunchback every time i stand up.

i itch.

i have the most insane heartburn.

like it rips my insides up.

all day.

every day.

i can't sleep.

i toss and turn.

and my sweet hubby is so good to still sleep in the same bed as me.

i know he doesn't get much sleep because of me.

and i swear to you... i pee every 10 minutes.

i sneeze... i pee.

i cough... i pee.

i drink a sip of anything... i pee.

it's awesome.

i swell up like crazy now.

my face. toes. feet. ankles. thighs. butt.

so awesome too.

and every time i eat... besides the heartburn... i feel like i want to puke because i had over eaten.

when i really only ate like a handful of anything.

so annoying.

and i'm super tired.

all of the time.

i hate all of this.

it's so hard for me.

my doctor told me that if we didn't have miss zoey by the weekend... i'll be induced on monday.

not exactly what i wanted to hear.

but at least i know the end is near.

and i'm enjoying these last few days as a family of 3.

it takes ALL of my energy to get one room cleaned.

and by the end of the day... you can't even tell.

i am just so incredibly ready to feel like a human again.

to hug & kiss & smell my sweet baby.

to get back in shape and to the gym.

to adjust to our new growing family & life.

to have energy to want to clean the house.

to eat and not worry about getting heartburn.

i am ready.